That Doggone Girl


Michael Jackson with Janet Jackson on the song “Scream” (the most expensive video of history).


Then of course, I noticed, because he didn’t have any makeup on, I noticed the Vitiligo.
It was on the right hand side of his face and down his neck and also on the back of his hand. I don’t remember which one. 

I don’t know how far it went up his arm because he had a long sleeve shirt on, but I noticed the Vitiligo and as time went on, the Vitiligo spread and spread and spread and it was difficult for him when he had to appear in public or perform, to get the right kind of makeup, because…that skin was white, not like Caucasian white. It was white like a refrigerator, snow white. 

In the beginning, he did use darker makeup to cover that, but then as it spread, it got more and more difficult to make that white skin the color of the rest of his skin, so he would have to go to lighter and lighter and lighter makeup. 
Of course the press got on him about that, about trying to be white. Which is the farthest thing from the truth.

Michael never wanted to be white. He was proud of who he was and where he came from, but he had no choice. The one thing he never ever did, he never complained about it. He had every right to.

-Dave Nordahl







It’s time for a change. Let’s not leave this building and forget what has been said. Put it into your heart, put it in your conscious mind, and let’s do something about it. You have to. We have to. - Michael Jackson’s speech against racism at Sharpton’s National Action Headquaters in Harlem.


It took me a little while, when growing up, to realize they’d/certain parts of the public completely forgot/made themselves forget about his stage accident and the fire; or didn’t want to remember he’d been horribly, horribly burned (head, scalp, parts of his face and neck too, I believe) and came back from that and still performed.

It’s so much easier to call him a ‘freak’.

Lets not forget that everyone and their mother still says he bleached his skin even though the LA coroner confirmed he had vitiligo and a form of skin lupus that suppressed the production of melanin in his skin. Not everyone wants to be white thank you. I also remember in high school ppl talking about how weird it was for a 40 y.o man to wear lipstick and make up. Not only is this sentiment homophobic, but it ignores the fact that MJ probably felt pretty self conscious about the blotches of unpigmented skin on his body. So yeah, he evened out his skin tone with make up. But I guess it’s easy to demonize someone who doesn’t fit into a heteronormative white supremacist patriarchal society

#we did not deserve you MJ


We deserved him. They didn’t.

And yes as a burn victim and someone dealing with vitilago - his gender presentation (fluid or not) aside, he had plenty of reasons to use make-up to present a more comfortable face.

It’s also hit me recently how activist his songs and works were. As a child I was just singing along. But now I realize why my mom and her generation, specifically those who were immigrants to the US; absolutely burned for him.

I also often thought it weird people thought him befriending children as ‘odd’. Children can be cruel, yea. But children will also accept a person as they are when given the choice to do so. All ‘Oh, that’s just how Michael Jackson looks’.

Like how children can accept that some people use wheelchairs and canes - they point out it out and if given a straight answer? They go with it. It’s adults slapping hands going ‘don’t stare, that’s rude’ and not answering the question that creates this element ‘something we don’t talk about’.

oh man i have a LOT of feels about the dehumanization of MJ

I never saw him as anything less than the definition of a legend, Michael Jackson. The white media could never change that.


4 years. rest in paradise.



my favourite thing to do in the holidays is fuck up my sleeping pattern as much as possible


I really hate being an introvert because I sometimes think “oh hey, I can totally hang out with a bunch of people right now! I can handle it! I hate being alone!!” and then three hours into hanging out I realize how draining of energy it is for me to be around other people and I just want to curl up into a ball and isolate myself for the rest of my life.


don’t date anyone who isn’t proud of you